OH MY

I can't believe that the semester is almost over. Only three more weeks and winter break starts. What is so funny I don't really want it to come. That only means that I have to go back to working on Tuesday mornings and I had gotten used to sleeping in. Oh well. Christmas is almost here and I am getting excited. It is time that I get to spend time with my family. It may be a little cut short because I have to work on Christmas Day, but that is what I get for being unselfish and letting Sara go home for Christmas.

I kinda wish I wouldn't have been. I have been so unselfish at work and what does it get me. They think it gives them the right to walk all over me. I know I should be over this by now, but Monday I got a new revelation on the situation. I guess I should explain what happened. Sundays are supposed to be a day that me and Sara switch. One Sunday she is 7-3 and I am 3-11 and then vice versa the next Sunday. Well Sunday before last I worked 7-3 so that is supposed to mean that last Sunday I was supposed to work 3-11. Well Nicole, our AGM, accidentaly made the schedule wrong. On Saturday when I got to work I reminded Sara that it was her turn and she left in a bad mood. Well about 10:15 that she calls and says that we have to stick with the schedule and that Nicole told her to stick to the schedule. I told her that I was actually looking forward to going to church and she goes I am sorry, but that is what Nicole said. To say the least I was pissed and almost passed out because of my anger. I bitched at my friend and our sercurity guard Mike for about 15 minutes just to calm down. I did what I was told and went to work at 7-3 on Sunday. When Sara came in she didn't say Thank You or anything just that I could work 3-11 3 weeks in a row for all she cared. I went to work on Monday and about 11 or so Nicole asked me what Sara and I had decided about Sunday. I go I worked 7-3 and she goes ok so that means you get 2 weeks in a row 3-11. I go yes. Sara is such a liar and about that time I wanted to come out of my skin. I decided I needed to leave so I took the trash out and just calmed down. I really hate being the adult all the time up at work. But I guess that is what I get. I also get all the crap from the rest of staff if they have done something wrong. I really should talk to Sara about this, but I like not really liking her right now. I know I am a BITCH, but I like it alot so I am not going to change. Well I have class soon and I really need to get off of here to go.

okay

i have decided that some guys aren't worth the time of day. They say they are your friend and then completely blow you off because they are jerks. Okay maybe that isn't what happened, but that is what is seems like. I didn't know he moved here and now that I had a friend here I was excited. Thought we could just go and be friends and hang out. I don't have a thing for him, but I guess he thinks that. Oh well. I just wish I could make him see that I see him as a good friend and that is all. Oh well. I have noticed that if I ignore him long enough he will realize that all I want is a friendship and nothing else.

But other than jerks. I had and interesting week to say the least. On Wednesday, I went up to work to help my friend Linda do something and as I was there the Fire Alarms went off because of a guest opening her door because of burning popcorn. Oh that was interesting. Then today we had the police come in because of some suspicous activity with some guests and come to find out they were doing some very illegal things and one guy was taken out in handcuffs. How interesting!!!!!! That isn't supposed to happen in a 3 star marriott hotel. I worked at a normal hotel for 6 months and nothing like what has happened in the last 5 months ever happpened there. Well except for the manager embezzling from the company, but that is it. But that has been my week so have fun with your weekend

oklahoma city

Ok so I went to Oklahoma City this weekend to see my friends and I loved it!!!! I miss all of them so much, but I am glad that I am home. I got to see everyone but Lance, but that is okay. I did get to see Jason and I couldn't have been more happy. I found out that his church is going to have Big Daddy Weave and I hope to get to go. It is in Feburary and I hope to get to go. I loved being with him and I finally got a picture of him. Okay so it is in my phone so I get to see it all the time. I think I am obsessed with him. Is that healthy?????

I am so sick of being single and going to Edmond this weekend made that feeling worse, but I guess I can get over it. I will admit I don't have time to have a boyfriend, but I am so sick of being single. I wish that I didn't have these feelings, but I will always have them until I am not longer in this state.

One question I have for anyone that reads this is how do you quit feeling the way for a friend and let God? One thing that many of my mentors have told me is if you want to hear God laugh, tell him your plans. I know he has wonderful plans for me and I don't know if Jason is part of those plans. Sometimes I do wish God would just go this is the man you are going to marry and this is how many kids you are going to have and here is the job you will have and here is the church you will be at, but as we know it isn't that easy. "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm, plans to give you a hope and a future." If I always remember that, I will be just fine!!!!!