wow i really hate doing this. i have to drive to Tahlequah on Thursday well to be technical tomorrow to enroll for school. i don't mind going to school, but i do hate enrolling. i hope that nsu will be alot better than UCO. I think that is why i quit going. i didn't know where to go so i was just taking random classes to get done. i am starting to get excited about going back. it is going to be so much fun. to get back to my element. to start making friends again. finally i will be in classes of people that are closely interested in the things i am. some people that want to learn more about the culture that i love so much. i have noticed since i have started to get excited again that my ability to write coherantly has come back. my creativity juices are coming back. finally after almost 3 years of being suppressed it has come back completely. well almost completely. i still can't write the poetry i used to, but in time it will come back to me. oh i officially "hate" my AGM up at work. she got me addictted to Alias. oh something else i can't afford. i am trying to save money to go to the NASCAR race in Texas. I hope i can go. I am paying 50 on my credit card every month so i hope that will give me enough to get to go. i am also going to try to save 25 or so for spending money so i can get a diecast or a hat. well maybe this time i will remember to come back and actually write in this thing. this might be an outlet for me to destress after work and school. til later
